Anger

I know that yesterday was Veteran's Day and I have super horrible timing but I'm going to post this anyway. I'm so angry at the my husband today. We had a big fight yesterday because he has told me for the last 3 years that he was for SURE getting out in spring 2014. Now he's trying to change his mind. Maybe it's not my decision, maybe I should support whatever decision he makes but it makes me fighting mad to think about almost 10 more years! How many deployments is that? When kasey deployed in 2010, karmen was 2. She was close to 4 when he got home and missed almost half her life if you include the 6 months of training he had to be away for from january-august. He was home for my FIRST semester of nursing school and missed the next 3. He thinks he can be in a non-deployable unit and things will be happy go lucky like they've been for the last year since he got home but I just don't trust the military. period. I don't trust them saying that he's not deployable. What happens when he deploys and doesn't come home? What happens when he deploys again when he PROMISED karmen he wouldn't ever leave like that again? She has the memory of an elephant so I know that she won't forget that. He thinks that I hate the military and that I always have/always will. He thinks I don't support his career decisions and that's not true. I want him to get out of the military because I love him. I want him to get out of the military because it's dangerous and it requires years away from your family. Rant over.

time slips away

Isnt it funny how quickly time passes? The last post i wrote was when blakely was brand spankin new and now shes 6months old. Im very content at this point in my life and i am trying to savor it because i know this life isnt supposed to be this wonderful and this wont last forever. Kaseys home (aka not deployed), our marriage is healthy, our kids are beautiful and funny and sweet and precious, we both have good jobs we enjoy, good friends, good families. I feel like our new home is actually home, unlike the other one where i never felt too attached. Maybe because karmen and i were always there alone...i know, poor me. I wish i could bottle the kids up and keep them this way forever. They love each other so much and i know that eventually they will fight, swear they hate each other at times, tattle on each other, etc etc.. its 2 am and kaseys in okc for more army stuff so karmen is asleep next to me and i just put blakely back in her crib. Ive mostly only posted about the sour aspects of motherhood on here so far so jot this one down in thesweet category. :) Hopefully Blakely wont be 1 before my next post.

It's been a while..

Now that I "quit" my deployment blogging, I haven't been on blogspot in a while. Hubby got home from afghanistan the first week of august and it's been a wild ride since! I found out I was pregnant august 28th. :))

Baby number TWO was born May 3, that may have something to do with my lack of free time ;) Her name is Blakely Reese and she is perfect (high maintenance maybe) but perfect anyway. I don't remember Karmen crying this much, but she seems to be (tmi) gassier than her older sister was. On a very, very bright note though she sleeps much better at 17 days old than karmen slept at 6 months old so thats a blessing. 

I'm on maternity leave, which will last until late July and although I'm having a rough time adjusting to being home all.the.time I'm loving the time with the girls and hubby. I work 3 12 hour shifts a week, so I leave the house at 6 am on the days I work and don't get home until almost 8 pm, so its nice to have so much more time with everyone. Karmen is definitely loving it.

We moved to a new home on December 1st. We started house hunting as soon as hubby got home from deployment during his month of leave he got afterwards. We found the PERFECT home after only looking at a couple and we still love it. 3 bedrooms, 2 full baths, swimming POOL!, hardwood floors, etc. We love the neighborhood and so far have no complaints. We have renters in our old home and thats going good so far.

Anyway, that's about all the updates I have for this first post back. I will hopefully have many funny stories to share this summer staying home with a 4.5 year old funny, silly girl and a newborn.

Sixlets...potential hazards.

Sixlets are the perfect size for a child's nostril. Yes, I got it out, and yes I had to have a picture first.

Victories and...err.. Mistakes

Parenthood is all about little victories and big mistakes. Soooo, here are a few of my own parenting bloopers:


Victory = Karmen has yet to learn a curse word from me.

Mistake = I said she never learned one from me, but I made the mistake of watching Daniel Tosh comedy with her in the next room (apparently listening). "Damn snapple" were the words.

Victory = She never really got into Dora the Explorer, mostly because I can't stand it and would turn on anything but that.

Mistake = Instead of the usual Dora obsession, she is now obsessed with Blue's Clues. Makes the Dora victory a little less of a win.

Victory = When potty training, she never had an accident in a public place.

Mistake = I made the mistake of trying the "go diaperless at home as much as possible" method, and well, she decided to poop on the carpet. As if that wasn't bad enough, when I walked up to her (freaking out a little) she accidently stepped in it. Then as it's stuck to her foot, she is jumping around and screaming and so instead of poop on the carpet, I got poop ALL over the living room carpet. Not to mention, I also stepped in some trying to get her to be still.

Victory = Karmen hasn't made many inappropriate comments to people in public, other than, "Tell her to stop looking at me."

Mistake = Karmen loves the movie Tangled, but a few days ago she walked up to me, patted me on the chin, and said, "You're gettin' kinda chubby." Thanks Rapunzel's mom.